THE FINAL MOTIVATION
It's called GRAY.
A kitten who gave her life on May 16, 2020 for us to take the courage to take this decisive step, due to the great suffering she had to endure and which we were unable to avoid, despite the tireless care we provide her, due to the limited budget that exceeded the 5 thousand reais we invested, and the incompetence of the veterinarians who refused to cure it when there was still time. Linked to the parallel implications that these circumstances imposed on us.
She was adopted by us in January 2009 after dating her for more than 1 year, when we were riding a bicycle through the Aterro do Flamengo in Rio de Janeiro, where we came across many abandoned kittens.
She won us over right away the first day we saw her. We started bringing her food, water and milk whenever we could on the weekends, and offering her our company, playing with her and giving her a few minutes of peace while sitting between the two of us on the grass, protecting her from the dogs who used to attack the cats, even for a few minutes, suffering at the time of departure when they saw her face of suffering for leaving her behind. And at home we cried with sadness thinking about her, that she could be cold on rainy days, or hungry.
One day, when we came back, we didn't see her where she used to be. We were so worried! Until we found someone who showed us where she was. We couldn't resist and went to get her the next day!
And from that day on, she became part of our life, becoming the most special member of our Family.
We lived together with her for 11 wonderful years in which we had the privilege of deserving her special company, offering her our unconditional love and receiving her pure love, coming from a Being of Light, a Grand, Powerful, Noble Spirit. You were always so good! Sweet and wild at the same time. He taught us to be like that, and that trust takes time to earn. She was giving herself to us little by little. A conquest sometimes took a year, like her giving us a front paw so we could hold our hands; another year to deliver the hind leg, resting it on our legs; lay her little head in our hands while napping, she loved doing it! And we enjoyed every moment like these.
I shared the headboard with her (I had to reduce the size of my pillow to half the headboard) and we would sleep looking at each other, we would sleep mutually (she knew what time I was going to bed and got ready in her corner before, waiting for my arrival), or when I chose to make our legs a pillow, choosing my bed one day, the other my Father's.
And in the midst of moments like these, facing others of extreme difficulty, in which she had behaved very well, like the warrior and strong cat she was.
We never forsake her again. We protected her in every way possible, even when we had to leave her for a few months, almost a year, with one of the cat caretakers who brought food and water to the kittens at Aterro, where she used to stay before we adopted her. We would always visit her. And just when we needed to leave, she looked at us with a reproachful face, as if to say: are you going to leave me here? And that hurt so much in our hearts! Because we wanted her with us.
But it was a period of difficulty in relation to housing. We were facing a delicate situation, and where we lived, they did not accept pets.
Until one day we couldn't take it anymore and we decided to go get it, with the authorization of the owner where we lived, who conditioned it not to make noise and not to generate dirt. We gave her this guarantee, because she was very calm, and we always took care of her hygiene. It was a joy to get her back and have her on our side again! Our beloved, our Queen, our little one!
And from then on we didn't separate anymore, although we went through several situations of great suffering that we got over together!
Anyway... it was our share of struggle in the Family. Yes, she was from the Family. Talking about her in the past tense causes us a lot of sadness. We miss you.
He was strong, he ate well, he had iron health!
Until 2019, all of a sudden, he stopped eating, and we didn't understand why. Soon she, an inveterate glutton, stopped eating? Something wasn't right. And we didn't have the money to take her to the vet. Luckily, we were about to receive compensation. But it took more than a month, during which time she lost weight despite our efforts to feed her.
Watching her, we noticed that she was chewing carefully on one side only, which made it clear that she might have a toothache.
When we finally managed to take her to the veterinarian, she was diagnosed with hepatic lipidosis with repercussions on the kidneys and dental infection that required the extraction of some teeth. However, first I needed to treat Lipidosis to strengthen the body, and thus have the stamina to face a surgery that required general inhalational anesthesia. The treatment started, which required, among other measures and medications, the application of a serum for a few days, at a high cost by hiring a nurse who came at home and who taught me how to do it. In a few days we noticed his good recovery. But we noticed that he felt pain in his mouth.
He went back to the vet to do new tests, and the improvement was amazing!
Still, the veterinarian, who was surprised by Ash's quick recovery, had denied the authorization to perform the dental surgery and end the root problem, as the infection in the teeth could be causing all these health problems. He claimed that it was not time yet and that he needed to continue with the treatment. We asked her about her orientation, as if her health problem could be caused by the dental infection, then she had to be treated with surgery as soon as possible so that full recovery could take place. She again denied the authorization, and recommended that we encourage her to eat any type of food, which surprised us, because a cat with lipidosis and kidney problems cannot eat any ration, much less with a high sodium content (detail: I was knowing this in research I did on the internet). He nominated the Royal Canin Light, and we thought he was right. But a few days later, Ash began to get dizzy, which she never had. Trying to understand her, I, who knew her well, interpreted how she would have high blood pressure. And it could only be because of the food that was affecting her kidneys. No sooner said than done. It was high in sodium. I immediately changed the ration.
So we had to give her special food in the syringe every 3 or 4 hours for a few days, until she could go back to eating alone. We gave them ground beef and boiled chicken. She took it well. And give him a serum myself every day, hurting me with every jab I needed to give him. I told her: a skewer for one more day of life. And she had behaved like a good girl. And the serum was good for him. I could urinate without pain.
Dissatisfied, we look for other veterinarians, clinicians and dentists. Both were wrong, one in the diagnosis and the other just wanted to know about money, in fact all of them! And us paying.
Until we ran out of funds to perform the surgery, but we continued to pay for consultations, new tests and always transporting her by taxi to avoid emotional upset.
Gray began to bleed from her little mouth all of a sudden in January 2020, and an abscess formed on her cheek that made the pus come out by tearing her skin, requiring all our daily care of asepsis and cleansing the skin. region with gauze and chlorhexidine antiseptic until the area recovers.
We get desperate! After a few days the wound stopped festering and the hole in the skin closed, much to our relief.
It was terrible to see her bleed! They indicated medications, such as strong analgesics, among others, which could increase the kidney problem. But it was a palliative that worked, as it stopped bleeding when I injected the anti-inflammatory into the syringe.
Dental surgery was vital! But the dentist said she might not resist. Still, we wanted to try. We even asked for help with donations for some people. Few helped us, but we are grateful to them for their kindness and contributions. They were just insufficient to do the surgery.
So we were forced to watch her bleeding, drop by drop, spewing out blood clots at times. And festering pus again in a second abscess, this one stronger still, and that it had torn her skin in the same spot that had scarred her. How it pains me to remember and write this! I was tireless in my care, but the infection this time was bigger. With every cleaning he did on her cheek, pus sprouted out, and a part stayed inside her mouth, and she inevitably swallowed. I couldn't help it. With that the infection reached his throat, leaving him without a voice, I couldn't even meow anymore. And it had certainly progressed to his organism, spreading to the other organs.
And the vets saying there was nothing more to be done. Not even in an emergency did they accept her claiming the same.
I searched the internet to understand what she had and what I could do to ease her suffering, with the conviction of finding a cure so that she would stop suffering and could return to her normal, healthy and happy life. Yes, she was Happy Cat! But I was suffering so much, poor thing...
We buy vitamins in the eagerness to strengthen it. But it didn't do much good.
In the last days of his life he could barely eat or drink water. When he tried, fall out of his little mouth. It was terrible for us to see your face in pain! I can't go far in these details. It hurts too much to remember.
I relive every moment of impotence for not being able to avoid your suffering or save your life. It's heartbreaking for me and my Father to remember, despite the 15 months that have passed since the day he passed away. My beautiful girl.
She was a daughter to me. So much so that I celebrated Mother's Day for the 1st time, a week before her departure, as her Mother. She made me be and feel a Mother, not because she left me, but because she was inside me, in my heart.
And my Father suffering in silence, putting up with the pain inside because he knew she wouldn't resist. To the point of having felt sick, with shortness of breath, difficulty breathing and excessive tiredness. He couldn't sleep because when he lay down he drowned. I had to take him to the emergency room doctor because I saw that he was serious, and despite his difficulty in walking, I managed. And with the medications that the doctor had given him, he was able to recover.
It was 9 months of extreme distress and pain. But she struggled to get well. He wanted to live because he loved being with us. She didn't want to leave, and neither did we see her leave. Our mutual love was, and always will be, unconditional and eternal.
We love her so much! And we will love her for eternity.
We don't abandon it! We stay with her until the end!
Until that fateful day, she was gone in my arms as my Father and I bathed her in hot water because she could no longer urinate in her toilet tray. We had to put a sanitary mat on the bed where she slept, and on her last night she lay in the middle of us both, trying to sleep, leaning on my Father's hands, between the shocks she had all night because of the difficulty in breathing.
Watching her go, taking her last breath, was the worst sight I've ever had to face, seeing her little eyes open and lifeless. How hard to remember! I couldn't stop crying, I wanted her back! I wanted my heart to stop too. But she didn't come back. The farewell was inevitable.
A neighbor who has been caring for cats for years, took charge of his burial, because we didn't have the strength to endure this moment any longer. And we repay her with items such as rations, medications, vitamins, hygienic sand bags, shampoo, conditioner, etc... we just keep with us some very personal items that were hers, where her energy is present.
The next day the house was empty, the deafening silence of her absence tore at our hearts.
The pain was unbearable. And it still hurts. Anyone who has lost a loved one, human or animal, knows what it's like.
But we had to accept it, and it was hard to have to live day after day without her.
I promised Ash, in spirit, that her suffering would not be in vain.
You must ask yourself why I am relating this part of our life, what is the relevance within the historical context in question.
I explain.
At the end of 2019, between August and September, we created a new Project that we called “Salão Rio Pintado” and then the “Salão Brasil Pintado”.
The first would be to promote the creation of a pictorial collection representing the 92 Municipalities of the State of Rio de Janeiro, and the second the 27 States of Brazil. The objective is to promote tourism through Art.
Since February 2020 specifically, we have been looking to TV Globo to support them with publicity and to Jornal O Globo to join in the organization of the Events.
For the first incursion that moved us was to seek support from the Rio de Janeiro State Tourism Secretariat, which granted us Institutional Support by Letter, followed by Official Support from the State Governor within the “Towards Rio” Program and, consequently, the support from City Halls and Tourism Secretariats of each of the 92 Municipalities of the State, as long as the product to be promoted was their Cities, which would benefit them directly.
After extensive work to make contact by email and telephone with each of the Municipal Governments of the State, from whom we asked for sponsorship and disclosure, only the Municipal Secretariat of Itaboraí expressed its support through a Letter of Support.
The others were on the fence, as there was no unanimity in support, whether institutional, financial or promotion, for various reasons.
So, seeing that with the public sector it would remain unfruitful, we sought the private initiative.
And TV Globo and Jornal O Globo were natural options for having two compatible paths for their feasibility: the dissemination and organization of the Event.
Thus, we had negotiations in which they expressed interest in joining, to the point that, in addition to exchanges of emails and phone calls, on April 9, 2020 we held a videoconference with André Rodrigues, Commercial Team Coordinator and Larissa Hirdes de France, Commercial Director for Special Projects at Infoglobo.
Their interest was in the total organization of both Events, by which they would buy the patrimonial copyrights. We made a point of remaining in production with regard to the selection of Works. And the production, dissemination and commercialization would be in charge of them. They visualized great potential for profitable and millionaire financial return from the exposure of Brands. They agreed to deal with the matter internally for us to establish the partnership. We were talking about 500,000 reais for the copyright transfer of both Events.
At the end of the videoconference, although we were excited, I had a terrible migraine, with severe pain in the back of my neck. It seemed contradictory. But, as I'm very sensitive and I pick up energy from people I'm connected to in some way, I paid attention and tried to interpret. Subsequent events showed me the meaning. It was really a strong absorption of negative energy that lurked behind those, which turned out to be false expectations.
To our surprise, they backed away blaming the Pandemic, as we were at the beginning of social isolation when everyone became apprehensive and many companies began to curb their contributions to on-site projects.
Our argument was that the Halls could have a virtual phase regarding the selection of Paintings, which would not prevent the sacrament of our partnership. But, they replied that only when the pandemic ended, they would talk about it again. We tried to dissuade them from changing their minds, but it was in vain. And to this day they have remained silent. And the pandemic is far from over.
And so it was another opportunity to make two Projects of our Authorship viable and obtain financial resources for our work. And of having worthily obtained resources to be able to continue paying for the treatment of Ash, our beloved kitten. That's why we strive to create and open new paths. She could be alive and healed.
But of course, who do both TV Globo and Jornal O Globo belong to? From the Marinho Brothers: Roberto Irineu, João Roberto and José Roberto, the same ones who have been preventing our financial sustainability, monitoring us closely to avoid it at all costs!
For our part, we seek to overlook the past and forget. We strive for overcoming difficulties and forgiveness, moving forward with objectivity and determination, aiming at the benefits that could be implemented in Society through our Creativity.
But, they haven't changed their attitude, despite the endless attempts at conciliation on our part over the last 25 years, still being the victims and they the villains.
To this day, they continue to insist on the same posture of blocking our economic growth, out of FEAR that we are in a position to discover the whereabouts of the 4 Paintings that were held in the Hotel Salles in Buenos Aires, details reported in this story and that we try to avoid publishing as much as possible.
It was the suffering of Ash, our beloved, who gave her life and blood, literally, that ultimately motivated in us the extreme need to find a way to end these vicious cycles that have been practiced by the 3 Marine Brothers against us for 25 years ... it's not 25 days or 25 months!
We do not want the same thing to happen to us as a result, as if it were "something natural" due to the long, inevitable and recurrent emotional wear we have been subjected to (actually induced by the 3 Marines), nor to have the same end of suffering and impotence that our little one, despite everything we've had to overcome until today, living with the scars that marked our soul and heart, and that caused profound changes in us.
In a concrete initiative to seek this final point, which must happen unconditionally and in common agreement between both parties, that is, we and the 3 Marine Brothers, we send you e-mails, always in a cordial and wise tone, with a Proposal According to, more than a year ago, exactly in:
- 06/08/2020 - here we offer to deliver all the original documentation related to the matter, by signing a Term of Responsibility and mutual commitments that put an end to this conflict, without going into details;
- 06/22/2020 - still without having received a reply to the previous email, we have attached a Confidentiality Agreement, which we wrote on our own, with a specific negotiation proposal where, in addition to delivering all the original documentation containing 25 files, we would waive the right to disclose the story reported here and to know the current location of the 4 paintings that appear in the Notarial Ata, but we would reserve the legal, moral and patrimonial right to show them as a professional reference, and to commercialize the reproduction of their images; and in return, as public proof that there would be no more conflict between our Families, they, the 3 Marinho Brothers, would acquire the painting “O Sonho é Possível” for 200 Million Dollars, placing it on permanent exhibition at Instituto Casa Roberto Marinho at Cosme Velho, Rio de Janeiro, giving the World Record that Pedrini has been promoting since early 2021 worldwide in an exclusive campaign, thus surpassing the record for Picasso who had the painting “As Mulheres de Algiers” sold for 179 million dollars ”. As a result, they would widely and internationally promote this acquisition. Nothing more just!
Achieving this record is a right that Pedrini reserves in view of the high quality, unique originality of his painting and professional history, without pretending to be better than anyone else, he is just Pedrini. And the values of Art are subjective.
This Record would boost the second sale of the painting “A Força do Quixote” for 1 Billion Dollars.
See campaign descriptions on the links (which were not included in the emails to the 3 Marine):
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1yNWwxC_t2M-71iOaWo_OjVOfu14ofA1M/view
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1EWfOHwa7ZVf02Nz4tnofpqooGxjWMBFV/view
- July 1, 2020 (in this, we insisted that they accept the agreement, and we mentioned Ash as the determining and final motivation for not admitting the continuation of this torturous situation)
We are patiently awaiting a response until the present, a period of 14 months in which we continue to seek to evolve financially through our Projects, despite the brakes that the Pandemic imposed, and in which we decided to give them one more opportunity, without forcing anything, to conclude with respect to choose Peace or War, a war that we did not create and never wanted to feed and that can end, not with our lives, but peacefully, without violence, with dialogue and acceptance of the negotiation that we propose, this ultimate, among so many others that we offer them and have remained unfruitful.
Despite the repeated and insistent silence of the 3 Marinho Brothers, and our capacity for resistance, resilience, patience, resilience and a lot of desire to live, at 02:00 hrs on the last day of 08/20/2021, as a last opportunity to to file and definitively close this sordid story that is trying to end our life, we send one last missive by email, appealing to a sense of prudence and wisdom, calling you to accept the Agreement we propose to you on 20/06/2020.
Warning them not to practice any kind of retaliation against us and that it would compromise our physical integrity, since there are many people who know that the story is written, finished and about to be publicly and internationally, eager to know the real story (my italics here: not the one they've been telling). The only way to keep the whole world from finding out would be for them to accept the Agreement. We gave the deadline for reply on the same day 20/08/2021. They remained in absolute silence. Confidentiality had lost its effect.
We try our best every form of compromise.
We grant them our sincere and authentic forgiveness. They rejected him. They made their choice and insist on hurting us...
We are with our conscience more than clear.
I conclude by making an APPEAL to all those who have dedicated their time to read and know the TRUTH reported here: do not support the Marine Family anymore to continue practicing against us this brutal economic blockade that is putting our lives at risk of succumbing.
This is our main objective: OUR FREEDOM!
Support our Projects . From them we can grow and help make ours a better world.
And if anyone knows the whereabouts of the 5 missing Paintings, please let us know their location, if this is still possible, as it constitutes an inalienable and inalienable right of the Author: my Father, the Painter Pedrini, of whom I am a Legal Attorney and to whom I defend above all and above all against the injustice committed against him, extending to his Family, including me.
We look forward to your full understanding and support.
May Peace reign and justice be done!
Thanks.
Rosângela Jassé Silva Pedrini
With full knowledge of Luis Héctor Pedrini (Pintor Pedrini)